Last day of the month. Nothing happening. Over a ¼ million deaths worldwide. Million unemployed. The president remains a moron. Today was very unproductive. Oliver is staying with us for the week but will be leaving tomorrow. I think it’s time for him to go. He is depressing me with his talk of liking animals instead of people. I still feel vulnerable around him and more so around Ian and Ari. I feel bad but they have some loyalty to Laura that precludes having a relationship with me and Emily.
Each state is now determining when to reopen. I’m not prepared to return to my life and yet feel unable to bare the nothingness that fills my days.